A guide through the wild & messy process of
rebirthing yourself after loss.
In the midst of the most painful time of my life - grieving the loss of my son - I found myself having a profound spiritual awakening. As the naturally curious researcher that I am, I began to look for the reasons why. What I have discovered shocked me. I happened to have every skill psychologists determined can lead to a “higher-functioning identity” with permanent states of being that resemble “awakened” states.
But it doesn’t happen automatically - you have to actively participate in your journey of re-writing your identity and rebirthing yourself. But how can you, if you don’t know?
I am now writing, speaking and teaching about this, because grieving people need help to not get stuck in the worst day of their life and, I know that if I am experiencing awakening through my grief, I’m not the only one - and it’s not easy to do it alone.
I am creating the AWAKEN THROUGH GRIEF book & Journal, and a community I am calling The HELD Circle, to walk through this messy, hard, brave AF path of awakening through loss and grief, together.
I’m on a mission
To change the ideas we have about how to walk through loss and grief, and what is means to live a sacred and devotional life while we’re here.
Hello Love. I’m That Mystic, Joya.
I teach the mystical path of grief because I am being resurrected by it.
My life has been a series of initiations: trauma upon trauma, loss upon loss, the kind of suffering that either destroys you or transforms you into something holy.
I chose transformation. Every. Single. Time. Well, at the level of consciousness I was at anyway. I have been all things unholy in my life.
But for 33 years, I gathered tools without knowing why: devotional practice, sound healing, somatic wisdom, mystical study. I was being prepared for the work I couldn't yet see.
And then, in February 2025, everything burned. Profound loss reduced me to ash when my beloved son passed away in a car accident.
But phoenixes don't die. They become.
In the fire of my own grief, I was given by Weston from the other side, a framework - a complete system for awakening through loss, rooted in ancient mysticism and modern science. Four pillars. Nine thresholds. Embodied practices that make resurrection, transformation and transfiguration real, and permanent.
I am about to start teaching what is saving me. I am walking what is remaking me. I am the living proof that grief is not the end. It is a becoming - and you, co-creating with The Divine, can have a say in what that becoming is.
I am a spiritual director, speaker and author of the forthcoming book: Awaken Through Grief.
“The only thing left to heal is your belief
that there is anything left to heal.”
-A DIVINE DOWNLOAD RECEIVED AT THE TEMPLE OF DENERA, EGYPT